Expectations..Thoughts FROM THE SOUL...

Have you ever expected something wonderful to happen from someone or something,
BUT didn't quite get what you were expecting..

Or expected a person to behave in a certain way...
to say or do a certain thing...

Expecting to be amazed by the world around you..
to explore the four corners of this vast Earth that you have heard so much about.

ONLY TO FIND CLOSED EYES and EARS
to sincere efforts of comfort, compassion and love;
to the efforts of others,
to the expressions of emotion that the closed eyes would only see as you trying to destroy them...

ONLY TO FIND OPPRESSION..
Men, women and children sleeping in cardboard houses under highway bridges;
who have lost their homes that they thought was the "American Dream".
OR
People afraid to speak out against injustice for fear of abandonment by their friends, their families, or society as a whole.

ONLY TO FIND DESPAIR..
People going to jobs that they hate..slavery is alive and kicking again in America, and if you are thinking "well not for ME it isn't" THINK AGAIN.. If you are working for someone else...working their hours...only able to go to the bathroom or eat when THEY allow...paying a 30 year mortgage for 30 YEARS .. or hiding out from the "repo man"... then my friends, YOU are a slave to these things whether you like it or not.

ONLY TO FIND HATRED..
hatred of the inner-self;
from others wanting what you have;
towards you due to the color of your skin or lack of;
hatred for decency and display of good character;
hatred towards the poor;

ONLY TO FIND ABUSE
Mental..
Verbal..
Sexual..
Domestic..
Child...
Physical...

My EXPECTATIONS are HIGH..

I will say it again, and again, and again...

My EXPECTATIONS are HIGH!!
For myself, those I love and those who say that they love me...for me.

Someone once told me that people will ALWAYS fall short of your expectations.
We are human after all. This same person told me to put my trust in The Almighty, The Watcher, The Disposer of Affairs...for He will NEVER fall short of your expectations and will always come through for you.

So I Expect that
HE will be there for me to guide me,
HE will HEAR me when I complain,
HE will SEE me..and not turn me away,
HE will comfort me..

My expectations are high...My Expectations Are High....
MY
EXPECTATIONS
ARE
HIGH!!!

~Yarncoture Maryum~
©Copyright 2010 Yarncoture Maryum

E M E R G E N C E........Poetry From The Soul

This is a the newest poem that I wrote for my continuing series "Poetry From The Soul"...read...absorb...reflect...and enjoy!

E M E R G E N C E

Deep within the darkness of the depths of my inner soul...
through the weariness...the worry..
I finally see my enemy;
The one who I have been battling, fearing, hating....
that enemy is ME.

An enemy to myself...locked in the darkness of fear and jealousy..
in the darkness of selfishness and cowardice and over-contemplation.

Unaware that I was my enemy;
stifling my heart of expression,
preventing friendships to blossom...

Unaware that I was the one
who didn't speak up for myself,though I wanted to..
who didn't speak against oppression though I thought of doing so...

Unaware that I was the one who kept others from loving me..seeing me..hearing me..and comforting me.

FEAR was my enemy and I had allowed FEAR to become ME.

I ran through the endless fields of darkness looking for a way out.
I searched countless corners only to find no openings...no cracks..no scent of comfort.

My mind was overcome by the prison of fear yet I walked this Earth in a path that seemed to be diminishing....I was unaware that I was walking...at all.

I needed to hold someone's hand, yet no hands were extended to me.
So I thought...

My soul screamed so loud that no one could hear it..the sound had blended in with the everyday sounds of the hustle and bustle of the world. I knew then that I could no longer sit in the darkness...in fear.

With one leap I was able to find an opening..some peace...some comfort..

I...AM...EMERGING

Little by little I started to gain confidence...courage...slowly dispelling my fears..my enemy..what had become ME.

I started to walk with my feet firmly taking every confident step..all the while fighting and ripping away the ME that I had become;
like walking against 200mph winds,

I...AM...EMERGING

You will see me smile, and in my smile you will see the depths of my soul, but you will see no darkness there;

I...AM...EMERGING

My voice will command respect and instill hope while it comforts and encourages you;

I...AM...EMERGING

YOU will SEE ME..YOU will not be able to avoid me..NO LONGER will I be invisible to you;

I...AM...EMERGING

When I walk by...the scent of triumph, endurance, positive thinking, courage, trust, and that of a blissful soul will penetrate your nostrils and invade your bloodstream and become so much a part of your inner being that you will not be able to survive without it.

I...AM...EMERGING...

You will see me...

You will hear me...

I'm coming for you...I'm not stopping...not stopping..

THIS IS MY E M E R G E N C E


By Yarncoture Maryum
©Copyright 2010 Yarncoture Maryum All Rights Reserved

THE JEWEL..Thoughts From The Soul..

My Thought Of The Day...
" A jewel is like a star....it is only considered precious if it can be thought of, admired and hoped for from afar...only attainable by one special soul to enjoy. HOWEVER if it is brought close and totally revealed of all its splendor and numerous eyes have seen it and several hands have touched it and many hearts lust for it, it is no longer precious to that one special person who it was truly meant for.....it becomes a common, ordinary, cheap adornment...and the one who attains it feels cheated...they no longer have something precious....they settled for less.."
~Yarncoture Maryum~

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P.S. There's a message in this to the wise...

The MoNkEy WrenCH (poetry from the soul...)

I want to hip you all up to this thing called the monkey wrench;
No one knows what it looks like or when it will hit but
when it hits you just get sick.
Your stomach is churning and turning and your soul is yearning for relief.
The gears in your mind are crashing and clacking while the monkey wrench continues to jam them...
You say to yourself "how could this be?? how could this happen to me??..ME!!!"

But you see, the monkey wrench has a plan to win;
to defeat you...it will treat you like a fool: you know, the fool that everyone thinks that you are...
By far, you are no fool and also have a plan.
Never fall in the same hole twice...it has been said!
If you let the monkey wrench's power overtake you, you'll be dead..
Your heart will cry in grief and your soul will scream for mercy over the monkey wrench's controversy and your mind will be spent.
What?? My plan, you ask? It is quite simple you see..

Patience is the key, you see..
In order for the monkey wrench's plan to work it must enrage you,
enough to make you act like a lion that's been locked up in a cage with no meat.
You see, you must stay calm...cool as a cucumber....don't let 'em see you sweat.
Always have a back-up plan, a frozen dinner waiting in the freezer, an extra change of clothes or whatever! Just prepare yourself for the monkey wrench's arrival...it's not fear, it's just survival!
Don't act like the lion in the cage; when let loose it devours everything in sight.
Believe me when I tell you, I understand your plight.
FIGHT with intelligence..FIGHT with strong character...FIGHT with dignity...
Only the posessor of these qualities will defeat the monkey wrench, you see...
Victory is yours and YES you have defeated it and only the foolish will flee and succumb to the monkey wrench's power. But it will be back! It will continue to test Man until the HOUR...

...until the next time...

~Yarn~
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